“She was never crazy, she just didn’t let her heart settle in a cage. She was born wild.. and sometimes we need people like her. For it’s the horrors in her heart which cause the flames in ours. And she was always willing to burn for everything she has ever loved.”
– R.M Drake
It was one of those days…This past Sunday!
Sundays are usually calm and productive! I call them Vinyl days! The calm makes them productive on my mind since Sundays are meditative days and beginning of a week for creative thoughts.
But this last Sunday, strong emotions came to me! Necessary ones ! Needed ones to become more clear on my decisions! I needed to admit to the mistakes of thinking highly of some people who have no standards in their own lives and perhaps due to upbringing , nature and people they gather around them..
Truth is I don’t want to be dealt as a schmuck if thats all you have known in this life and have around as so called ‘ friends ” then I’m not one of them! So either move away from me or I’ll admit to my mistakes to think of you so highly therefore I forgive myself then I will move myself away , at last!
I felt I was on constant hold until I set out to the sea..
I was anxiously waiting to hear about this woman’s fate in Iran, they hung her today..then I have been following the story of an elderly dog of this writer , the dog passed the rainbow bridge early this afternoon, at last peacefully..On top somebody totally blew me off today but they have done it before so I had a feeling they would flake again..I felt I was on hold by these events.
I felt I was waiting..Right until I decided to set out and feel the cool sand under my feet ..salty air and a book of poems of Plath by the sea…
Needed some time alone to make decisions ..My emotions were all over the place.Needed some Solace to rethink all..
Is it the fate of some..I have been questioning this over and over…
The End !