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After the massive rain and a meeting at my studio yesterday, I felt inspired. This morning as I stepped outside, I was greeted by the most beautiful sight – the vibrant colors of fall in New England. The trees had burst into shades of red, orange, and yellow, and the air was crisp and refreshing.

Inspired by this breathtaking view, I grabbed my camera – my trusty Leica – and set out to capture the beauty of the season. I love shooting with my Leica because it’s the closest thing to film. It gives me the feeling of shooting with Velvia – a type of film that’s known for its rich colors and deep saturation.

So instead of driving to the winding roads of New Hampshire’s White Mountains, a place I always visit often to capture the fall colors. These days, the upper North Shore of Massachusetts is also a great spot for fall photography, so I decided to explore the area.

The drive was peaceful, and I was lost in thoughts as I took in the stunning scenery around me. When I returned home, I uploaded my photos and was thrilled with how they turned out. I picked two of my favorites to share with my Facebook audience and couldn’t wait for them to see the beauty of fall through my lens.

Satisfied and after doing tons of chores this past week, it is time for a Sunday nap.

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A little on Sherwood Anderson and Love !

“Love is like a wind stirring the grass beneath trees on a black night”

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‘You must not try to make love definite. It is the divine accident of life ‘

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Image my own..

If you try to be definite and sure about it and to live beneath the trees, where soft night winds blow, the long hot day of disappointment comes swiftly and the gritty dust from passing wagons gathers upon lips inflamed and made tender by kisses.” 

Image my own ..On my way to Taos!

Image my own ..On my way to Taos!

And I love Anderson..who has influenced so many amazing writers such as Ernest Hemingway, Salinger and William Faulkner!

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Tennessee Williams!

( From my journals Dec.19th 2012 , Keywest )

I don’t consider myself a writer..But I’m poetic enough and have balls of fire to think I can write as I feel . Tonight, passed by Tennessee Williams house here in KeyWest.. I will leave you with this quote then off for a swim and perhaps coming back to my blog ..

” If the writing is honest it cannot be separated from the man who wrote it. ”

Tennessee Williams

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Tennesse Williams house, KeyWest

Believing in law of Attraction , I looked for the house ! Unknown to many unless Williams hard core fans ! In a twisted fate I got invited in by the current owners and later bought his ashtrays ..

I took this shot of T. Williams at his house ( KeyWest) , where he lived for nearly 30 years ..It was a photo taken from the original print found in a box in the closet . The shot is taken in the yard and I was told he was chatting with Elizabeth Taylor whom he adored mad !

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” The strongest influences in my life and my work are always whomever I love. Whomever I love and am with most of the time, or whomever I remember most vividly. I think that’s true of everyone, don’t you? ”
Tennessee Williams

Stormy day from my journal December 27th , 2011 ! (Rimbaud)

Now it feels writing blogs are a bit easy since I have years of notes and images ! I daily miss Juna ! I do …Life at times is easy when you love and your loved ones are by your side!

It ‘s this Storm…The wind is whispering all around.. and I love Rimbaud..

I have come to know the skies splitting with lightnings, and the waterspouts

And the breakers and currents; I know the evening,

And Dawn rising up like a flock of doves,

And sometimes I have seen what men have imagined they saw!

I have seen the low-hanging sun speckled with mystic horrors.

Lighting up long violet coagulations,

Like the performers in very-antique dramas

Waves rolling back into the distances their shiverings of venetian blinds!

I have dreamed of the green night of the dazzled snows

The kiss rising slowly to the eyes of the seas,

The circulation of undreamed-of saps,

And the yellow-blue awakenings of singing phosphorus!

I have followed, for whole months on end, the swells

Battering the reefs like hysterical herds of cows,

Never dreaming that the luminous feet of the Marys

Could force back the muzzles of snorting Oceans!

I have struck, do you realize, incredible Floridas

Where mingle with flowers the eyes of panthers

In human skins! Rainbows stretched like bridles

Under the seas’ horizon, to glaucous herds!

I have seen the enormous swamps seething, traps

Where a whole leviathan rots in the reeds!

Downfalls of waters in the midst of the calm

And distances cataracting down into abysses!

I have seen…and seen it with you..My sweet Juna! ( Still remember your head on my lap)

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Looking back !

I wrote this on :

“Good morning..heading out to my new favourite coffeeshop ( she is now closed , honestly because although a nice person, with the support she received from the community, I even gave her three days of volunteering to re-organize, she turned out to be an idiot! ) ! 2011 was perhaps the most twisted year of my life. Emotionally heavy and but at times so amazing and easy like liquid…it felt I had fully experienced what life had for me secretly in some a bucket..A stranger held my hand this year and said..”stay present no matter what! No matter what ” she was right!..I have ..it always works ! It does my friends..”

And this year 2015, I went to the same spot where the stranger held my hand !I wanted her to know , it worked! Gratitude !

The town of Ojai , CA

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Time flies! February 1-2015!

Missed the first one this year ! The blizzard of 2015 ! I was happy where I was ! Under Palm trees surrounded by warmth and love ..Away for almost a month and then caught the next one ! Somehow as always I had missed my life no doubt ! The cats , the aroma of my home , the sweet light that indeed spreads all over, my vinyls, my artwork.. ..It was hard to leave Southern California but in reality it wasn’t either! I cleared my head , one of the reason why I left for the amount of time needed..I needed to clear some space in my head and in my heart ! And I believe I succeeded !

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Life can be something I tell you! But we all know that anyway! Two days ago I was in 75degree enjoying myself in a pool filled with hot mineral water and today this!

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But you gotta make the best out of it all! Took me about 5 minutes to get to my garage to get some wood out for the fireplace!

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Got some Proseco chilled. And made some bean and cheese tortilla… And yes I went out for a nice walk too if nice is the word..well it was refreshing, I guess..and even tried to shovel..

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So indeed life is ever changing! And I like the feel of change ..Sometimes whether you want it or not it will change on its own ..I will run with it!

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I’m looking to flowers , love and poetry ..And indeed the aroma of all !

I’m looking forward to be be using my senses of Spring time !

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I have only one major choice within this life . As long as I breathe on my own , as long as I walk on my own, as long as I see on my own , as long as I can feel all I need to feel..I will chose to do it as happy and as grateful as one can be ! I know there are are thorns out there but  I chose not even the thorns will change my decisions in staying alive and happy and mainly grateful !

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Some see weed , some see flowers and I see the world in flower , hoping for wish ..

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What separates me and you are in these lyrics :

There is a deeper world than this
That you don’t understand
There is a deeper world that this
Tugging at your hand

Every ripple on the ocean
Every leaf on every tree
Every sand dune in the desert
Every power you never see

There is a deeper wave than this
Swelling in the world
There is a deeper wave than this
Listen to me girl

Feel it rising in the cities
Feel it sweeping over land
Over borders, over frontiers
Nothing will its power withstand

All the bloodshed, all the anger
All the weapons, all the greed
All the armies, all the missiles
All the symbols of our fear

There is a deeper wave than those
Rising in the world

At the still point of destruction
At the center of the fury
All the angels all the devils
All around us can’t you see

I say love is the seventh wave
But this love you don’t understand
Sting

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Let’s try and avoid death in small doses,
reminding oneself that being alive requires an effort far greater than the simple fact of breathing.

Only a burning patience will lead
to the attainment of a splendid happiness.”
― Pablo Neruda

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This is what importance means to me. When something is important, you will find a way! When something is unimportant you will find an excuse..It is how I differentiate between people..But flowers are important!

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All flowers in time bend towards the sun, I know you say there’s no one for you, But here is one.
Jeff Buckley

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The prisoner is not the one who has commited a crime, but the one who clings to his crime and lives it over and over.
Henry Miller

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Imagination is the voice of daring. If there is anything Godlike about God it is that. He dared to imagine everything.one without it, is not daring!

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From my own garden and around the world…I play and create a Tableau …when my mind tells me!
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I sometimes think my vision of the sea is the clearest thing I own!

“Is it the sea you hear in me,

Its dissatisfactions?

Or the voice of nothing, that was you madness?”

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 Love is a shadow.

How you lie and cry after it.”

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The future is a gray seagull Tattling in its cat-voice of departure.

Age and terror, like nurses, attend her,  

And a drowned man, complaining of the great cold, Crawls up out

of the sea.”

Sylvia Plath

 

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“I shall never get you put together entirely,

Pieced, glued, and properly jointed.”

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It starts here from the sound of the ground , below me .. The sound of the White in its thought of drowing deep .. Long standing one with the Blue Grey sky.. ah the wind, the wind , for every thin layer of wet long grass greenfly

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I ‘m where I need to be

Here

In the dunes

in the flats ..in the stream

where the snow falls

By the sea

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I still hear the dance of the sky

 whereThe Gold meets the light ..

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My footstep takes me only near not far..

60 things you maybe not know about New York City!

Yes , I love NYC . And If you know me well then you would also know why ! I know The City pretty well and I have always said if you have a dash of creativity in you, try to live in NYC at least once in this lifetime!

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Would I lived there again, the surprising answer is a no! These days I try to be a constant visitor. I need NYC since I need its vibe, its goodness because this soul of mine gets so maxed out at times and needs a place to be able to exhale the thick air brought by the conservative mentality of people in Massachusetts! Not politically for sure , a blessing indeed but mentally which makes my current city , Boston a bit strange in my opinion !  And I have lived around the globe to tell you NO OTHER major city in the world would compare to NYC!  There is only one and only NYC!  ” and If you can make there , you can truly make it anywhere!

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1. Pinball was banned in the city until 1978. The NYPD even held “Prohibition-style” busts.
2. It is a misdemeanor to fart in NYC churches.
3. It costs $1 million to get a license (medallion) to operate a taxicab.
4. The first pizzeria in the United States was opened in NYC in 1895.
5. In 1857, toilet paper was invented by Joseph C. Gayetty in NYC.
6. The Jewish population in NYC is the largest in the world outside of Israel.
7. Up until World War II, everyone in the entire city who was moving apartments had to move on May 1

8. The city of New York will pay for a one-way plane ticket for any homeless person if they have a guaranteed place to stay.
9. There’s a man who mines sidewalk cracks for gold. He can make over $600 a week.
10. According to New York City’s Office of Emergency Management, the last hurricane to pass directly over the city was in 1821. The storm surge was so high that the city was flooded up to Canal Street.

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11. Hog Island, a one-mile-long island south of Rockaway Beach, was never seen again after the hurricane of 1893.
12. New York City’s leading hurricane historian, Nicholas Coch, a professor of coastal geology at Queens College, believes that this is the only reported incidence ever of the removal of an entire island by a hurricane.

13. Up until 1957, there was a pneumatic mail tube system that was used to connect 23 post offices across 27 miles. At one point, it moved 97,000 letters a day.

14. Albert Einstein’s eyeballs are stored in a safe deposit box in the city.
15. There are tiny shrimp called copepods in NYC’s drinking water.
16. On Nov. 28, 2012, not a single murder, shooting, stabbing, or other incident of violent crime in NYC was reported for an entire day. The first time in basically ever.
17. There’s a wind tunnel near the Flat Iron building that can raise women’s skirts. Men used to gather outside of the Flat Iron building to watch.

18. About 1 in every 38 people living in the United States resides in New York City.
19. New York City has more people than 39 of the 50 states in the U.S.
20. There is a birth in New York City every 4.4 minutes.

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21. There is a death in New York City every 9.1 minutes.
22. The borough of Brooklyn on its own would be the fourth largest city in the United States. Queens would also rank fourth nationally.
23. New York City has the largest Chinese population of any city outside of Asia.
24. New York has the largest Puerto Rican population of any city in the world.
25. PONY stands for Product of New York.\

26. In 1920, a horse-drawn carriage filled with explosives was detonated on Wall Street killing 30 people. No one was ever caught, though it is considered to be one of the first acts of domestic terrorism.
27. In nine years, Madison Square Garden’s lease will run out and it will have to move.
28. UPS, FedEx, and other commercial delivery companies receive up to 7,000 parking tickets a DAY, contributing up to $120 million in revenue for the city of New York.
29. It can cost over $289,000 for a one-year hot dog stand permit in Central Park.

30. Sixty percent of cigarettes sold in NYC are illegally smuggled from other states.

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31. There was one homicide on 9/11, and it remains unsolved.
32. There are “fake” buildings in the city that are used for subway maintenance and ventilation. The building below in the middle, located in Brooklyn, has a fake facade. There is no brownstone within.

33. Chernobyl is closer to New York than Fukushima is to L.A.
34. There are more undergrad and graduate students in NYC than Boston has people.
35. New York City’s 520-mile coastline is longer than those of Miami, Boston, Los Angeles, and San Francisco combined.
36. The Empire State building has its own zip code.
37. The East River is not a river, it’s a tidal estuary.
38. There is a secret train platform in the Waldorf Astoria hotel.

39. When the Dutch first arrived to Manhattan, there were massive oyster beds. In fact, Ellis Island and Liberty Island were called Little Oyster and Big Oyster Island.
40. McSorley’s, the oldest Irish ale house in NYC, didn’t allow women inside until 1970.

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41. Madison Square Park, Washington Square Park, Union Square Park, and Bryant Park used to be cemeteries.
42. There are 20,000 bodies buried in Washington Square Park alone.
43. The original Penn Station was considered to be one of the most beautiful train stations in the world but was torn down because of declining rail usage.

44. NYC garbage collectors call maggots “disco rice.”
45. In 2010, 38% of all 911 calls in NYC were butt dials.
46. Times Square is named after the New York Times. It was originally called Longacre Square until 1904 when the NYT moved there.
47. The entire world’s population could fit in the state of Texas if it were as densely populated as New York City.
48. In 1975, the city of New York sold a private island in the East River for $10.

49. The winter of 1780 was so harsh in New York that New York harbor froze over. People could walk from Manhattan to Staten Island on the ice.
50. From 1904 to 1948 there was an 18th Street station on the 4/5/6 line. It’s abandoned now, but you can still see it on local 6 trains.

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51. The narrowest house in NYC is in the West Village: 75 1/2 Bedford Street is just over 9 feet wide.

52. In 1906, the Bronx Zoo put an African man on exhibit in the monkey house.
53. Credit card minimums ARE legal in the city. In 2010, Congress passed a law saying up to a $10 minimum was legal.
54. It would cost about $17,000 to take a cab from NYC to L.A.
55. In 1922, there was a Straw Hat Riot. It was an unofficial rule in NYC that straw hats weren’t allowed to be worn past Sept. 15, but some unruly kids started snatching people’s hats a few days before that causing an uprising that lasted a few days.
56. Eating a New York bagel is equivalent to eating one-quarter to one-half a loaf of bread.
57. NYC buries its unclaimed bodies on an island off the coast of the Bronx called Hart Island. Since 1869, nearly a million bodies have been buried there. The island is not open to the public.

58. There’s a 150-foot-deep hole (15 stories) on Park Avenue between 36th and 37th streets.
59. The price of a slice of pizza and the cost of single ride on the subway has been nearly equal for the past 50 years.
60. The scary nitrogen gas tanks you see on the corners of streets are used to keep underground telephone wires dry.

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By  (BuzzFeed Staff)

Images are  mine !  The first  Black and White image from top is at The White House .

The Little Bear is a Judith Leiber evening purse $ 6500

” Bare we come , damaged we leave ”

We lay there for nine months. Each of us with no exception. Do you ever wonder what happens to us while we are in the mid air of being born ? Do you ever wonder what kind of thoughts goes to our soft shell brain? Do you ever wonder since we are so pure and without any prejudice how we perceive that world ? The world of our Mother’s womb .Do you ever wonder there is no fear but only perhaps certain joy of stillness ? It seems the first nine months of this life is so carefree that no one remembers anything. Almost surreal , hard to believe we were once in such calm solitaire.

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Then it begins , Labor and we pass the tunnel of birth . The Placenta can no longer do its job, so the lungs take over. In the womb, a fetus’s lungs are filled with a fluid that helps them mature. We start maturing a way too different from the moment we are born into the life we know.

Jim Morrison once said ” This is the strangest life I have ever known..”

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What happens next is a story different for each of us. We grow and we crave to have that brightest sun shine on us equally..

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But we may soon realize that this world isn’t just the way it was in our mother ‘s womb. 

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Now we are dealing not only with the essential elements of life , Sulfur , Phosphorus , oxygen , Nitrogen , carbon , Hydrogen but also love , doubt , fear , deceive , decision making , social awareness, diseases and indeed self awareness.. and how all it implies to this life and it shapes our way of living ..just being !

Then we stumble about the believability and indeed ask ourselves what are we living for? Love is hard to believe, ask any lover. Life is hard to believe, ask any scientist. God is hard to believe, ask any believer. What is your problem with hard to believe?”  Many all together simply stop to believe! 

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When we suffer a great deal in life, each additional pain is both unbearable .

 This is about us, human beings ! how bare and vulnerable we come to this world and how we let this life sweeps us away..

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The question always remains, is it life or do we allow life to damage us ?

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“It’s important in life to conclude things properly. Only then can you let go. Otherwise you are left with words you should have said but never did, and your heart is heavy with remorse.”

 Yann MartelLife of Pi

 

I don’t have your answer , I don’t have any questions!